There is nothing like looking into a child’s eyes filled with tears… but closed desparately hard. Seeing his body wracked with the deepest pain possible as he sobs and sobs and sobs… I try to comfort him but am mostly unable to reach into his heart. I moan with him to let him know I care. I hold him but he pushes me away. I see his face contorted. His lips twisted in knots. I will not forget this moment! I promise you I will not forget this moment! I will let these feelings… this experience now be a like a painful brand on my soul… an everlasting reminder so that I will not forget. I vow as I live and God empowers me… to be your advocate… and to speak up in the face of great personal loss.
I wish I could say everything is going to be all right when I really have no idea how things are going to be. Even so I trust in God. He will be my strength. He will have to be my strength because I am all ready all tired out and we haven’t even started.
12And they told Mordecai what Esther had said. 13Then Mordecai told them to reply to Esther, “Do not think to yourself that in the king’s palace you will escape any more than all the other Jews. 14For if you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” 15Then Esther told them to reply to Mordecai, 16“Go, gather all the Jews to be found in Susa, and hold a fast on my behalf, and do not eat or drink for(I) three days, night or day. I and my young women will also fast as you do. Then I will go to the king, though it is against the law,(J) and if I perish, I perish.” 17Mordecai then went away and did everything as Esther had ordered him.
There are bigger forces at work in our case. We feel like it’s the 1 against 100 or 2 against 1000. We are overwhelmed yet know that this is our “for such a time is this.” For us our backs up against the wall and it is all or nothing. As God calls we will step forward. As the Jews prayed and fasted… we beg that those of you who love us… would cry out earnestly to our Lord and Saviour and God… That he would sustain us and see us through all that he has for us. We have allready been very blessed from everyone’s care.